Hey I’m the crazy one here!

I was looking through my old posts and noticed a bunch of re-used titles. I try not to re-use the same titles in such a short amount of time, but I guess I’m losing my touch. So many celebrity deaths lately, it’s almost become a habit to check CNN every day when I wake up, which is sad. I guess the parents went to town, because they’re not home. I played Spider-Man Web Of Shadows last night. It was alright, I guess. The camera angles were pretty annoying, though. I sent it back with Sonic’s Genesis Collection so I can get Littlebigplanet and Animal Crossing for the Wii.

Yesterday, Corey was looking through my pictures and said how different I look compared to 2005. He sent me two links to compare. I looked at the most recent picture of myself and I seriously look dead inside. My eyes are just devoid of life. Of course, in true fashion, we both found this incredibly amusing and laughed for ten minutes.

The other day, my brother told me he was going to sign up for the Y. I’ve actually been thinking about that for awhile. I want to do something active, but I knew my mom wouldn’t take me, so this works out nicely. I used to swim there, when I was in elementary school and that was a lot of fun. I’m not sure what kind of stuff I’ll be able to do, but it will be good for me to get up and away from the computer and moving around.

I downloaded the Infamous soundtrack yesterday, it’s actually pretty decent. I’ve been listening to the ending song a lot, I think that one is my favorite. Corey told me about a band called the Silversun Pickups and they’re not bad either.

I will stay in the mess I made

I never did take that break from Maple. I expected to take a few days off from logging on entirely, but that never happened. In a way, I guess that’s good, that the game can still keep entertained. In a way, it’s horrible, as it tends to pull me away from other things. I only slept about 3 hours and woke up to Fresh Prince. I started watching that and realized I should probably get up and try to get some things accomplished. It took me another hour after that before I decided what I was going to do. Though I did eat lunch, so that’s a good excuse. I couldn’t decide on watching a movie or playing a game, but I ended up playing Infamous. I didn’t realize how close to the end I was since the last time I played, like a week ago or longer. The boss at the end wasn’t very difficult once I figured at his pattern, but he summoned these bomb things that fucked me up a good bit. I didn’t even realize it was the end until I started watching the cut scenes. Most satisfying, crazy mindfuck of an ending ever. Granted, I never really beat a whole lot of games, but I was still really excited with it. I started doing some of the side missions and got a few trophies along the way. My save file says I’m 60% complete, which is awesome. Then I can start on the evil side after that.

When there’s no one left to tell, I keep it to myself

I find it extremely awkward having to sit in the same room as my family for long periods. Yesterday at around 8 am, my mom told me that my cousin would be coming over later in the day. I hadn’t been to sleep yet and still needed to shower, but first I had some cereal! I finally went to sleep at 9 or so. My dad woke me up at 1:30 or 2, I can’t remember. I said hi, then my mom asked if I wanted to sit down or leave. That’s a bad thing giving me a choice like that, because you know what I’m going to pick. She always yells at me for never socialing with family, though, so I sucked it up and sat down. For the next 2 hours, I tried my best to pretend to care. In the end, I realize that’s far too much work. I really don’t know what to say to them. My dad’s side of the family is having some kind of reunion thing on Saturday, but I had enough of that.

There was one bit of good news my mom gave me. She said she’s going camping with my dad. Probably just for a weekend, but that will still be nice.

Hold a mirror to show just what you’ve become

Debbie has been bugging me to post a new blog for awhile, but I’ve been hardcoring it up with Maple and when that happens, everything else gets pushed to the side. Luckily, the Anniversary events are over, I think, so I hope to use this week or at least some of this week to catch up on things that I’ve neglected recently. I haven’t played Infamous in a week or more. I was doing really good on it for a few days, I played for a couple hours every day. It’s not even that I don’t like the game, in fact, I have pretty much zero complaints about it, which, coming from me, is crazy. I’m an extremely picky gamer. Corey and lately, Crystal have been trying to get me in to other games, but I always find some excuse not to play. If a 2D game came out, with the features of World Of Warcraft (great quests and more things to do than to grind constantly) I would so be there. It’s funny to think about, before I started playing Maple (back in 07), I used to play Super Paper Mario a lot, then I got in to Maple and I never looked back.

I have Spider-Man Web Of Shadows from Gamefly sitting on my entertainment center. Never played it yet. I tried watching a Steve Byrnes DVD a few nights ago, but the DVD wouldn’t detect in my Playstation. I ejected it and tried again. Nothing. So I take it out and look on the bottom of the disc for smudges or something and it’s all cracked, so I had to send it back for a replacement, then my brother forwards me an email that he got from Netflix that I’ll have to wait to get a replacement DVD, so now I have Dark Knight on Blu Ray and Jim Gaffigan’s King Baby coming next.

I was talking to Corey on Skype all night, he was working on his final for Photoshop or one of those classes and around 3 am, I got so hungry for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, but complete laziness kept me on the chair for another 6 hours. When I finally did get up, I noticed some tomatoes in the fridge. I haven’t had a tomato sandwich in awhile. I used to hate them, but now I think they’re so delicious. Anyway, I was getting the bread out and knocked the tomato on the floor. I yelled out FUCK! I didn’t want to waste the tomato, so I rushed the tomato to the sink to rinse it off and hoped for the best. I was eating it either way! After I had that, I had some frosted shredded wheat and now I’m good to go. I should really get some sleep soon, though.

After seven years, I finally closed my message boards a few weeks ago. I don’t know why that’s worth mentioning, but I decided to throw it in anyway. I watched the Sony conference at E3 and now I really want a PSP Go. They’re so sleek and sexy. The sad thing is, I rarely play my DS. I can’t remember the last time I played it. It’s not even that I’m stuck at an area that’s too difficult for me to beat (like my excuse for not playing Uncharted more!) it’s just that I can’t find the motivation to pick it up to play. The thing is, once I start playing, I can’t stop. I need to update my iPod. I haven’t done that in a long time. Not that I’ve gotten any new music in forever, but my favorite songs rotate a lot, so I like to keep it current at least.

I updated my desktop screenshot finally. I found a new picture of Infamous in super high quality that I decided to use. I had another Infamous background before this, but I love the shade of blue in the current one.

For eternity I’d lay in bed

Some days I wonder why people still read my blog. I have nothing interesting to say. I suppose I could ask myself the same question, why do I read blogs? For the most part, they’re pretty entertaining, I used to stay up and read a bunch of blogs at once, but now no one really updates their blog anymore, so I don’t have much to read.

Yesterday, I woke up really early, like noon, which is weird considering I went to sleep at 7 am. When I woke up, I was pretty wide awake and I had things to distract me all day to keep me awake. About 8 pm, though, I got insanely tired, but I was now waiting up to see my friend advance in Maple Story. By the time she advanced, it was almost time for Conan. It had been about 2-3 months since he was last on, I think, so it was nice to see him again. I know it’s only the first show, but it seems like it won’t change a whole lot from before, which is good.

After Conan was over, I went to sleep, it was like 1. I woke up at 4. As soon as I woke up, it started thundering. Abby came in here and sat on the floor next to me. For some reason, thunder scares her now. I feel bad for her. I guess because she’s getting older, it never did before.

I’m running out of movies to get on Netflix. I only have like 6 left in my queue. I have a ton in the saved queue, but those won’t be coming out for awhile. I need to work on Infamous today. I’m trying to get to this one area to accept the mission, but I keep dying before I get there. I’m not even dying on a mission, it’s just on the way to the mission, which is sad. I need to learn to use the rooftops more. The Uncharted demo starts tomorrow.

Lately, I’ve been having a craving for cinnamon and then Sunday, my mom brings home cinnamon Apple Jacks. Win. I’ve been eating it like crazy, it’s really good.

I’ve been trying to grow a “normal” beard. I can grow the goatee and the mustache without any problems, but the rest of it comes in so weird. I’m trying to have patience to wait it out and hope that eventually it grows normally, right now it’s just a lot of patches on my face and it looks stupid. Only four people see me, though and that’s being generous, so it doesn’t really matter how bad I look.

Why’d you have to go and make me say these things about you

I’ve been meaning to update, as usual, I just never get around to it. Before Infamous released, I was up until 9 am mostly playing Maple, trying to hunt for items during the anniversary. They took forever to drop, but I finally found them. As mentioned before in the previous post, Gamestop’s site is shit. It should be no surprise then, that the store is shit, too. When the website tells me I’m going to get a phone call when the game arrives, I expect a phone call. No call. It had been two days since the game was released and nothing. So I call up to the store myself to ask if they have copies of it. Of course they do! I managed to talk my dad in to going to pick me up a copy. Like a true addict, I’ve been trying to split my time between Maple and Infamous. I really don’t have any complaints about the game at all, it’s a lot of fun. There was a stealth mission that angered me more than it should have, but otherwise, it’s a great game. I usually don’t have this much fun with single player games, so that means a lot coming from me. I also have the Uncharted 2 demo to look forward to, but that doesn’t activate until June 3rd.

There’s two paths to the game, good and evil. Right now, I’m working on good. I think I have like 20-30% of the game completed. I watched one of Chris Rock’s dvds last night, as well as Powder Blue, it was okay. I sent Legends of WrestleMania back. It wasn’t too good. I only played it once, with no real plans to play it again.

I really thought I had more to say. As soon as I hit publish, it will all come to me.

I said I would and I did.
My mouse has been really shitty lately. When I click, it doesn’t work, so I click it again and it ends up opening it twice. I go to close one and it closes both tabs or if I go to hit back and I end up going back twice. It’s wonderful. I changed the batteries, but it’s still doing it. I go through too many mice. I still need a new headset, too. This mess of tangled cord is too much.

This is how it feels, calling out, but no one even hears

I don’t know why I haven’t updated much recently. I have things to say, just don’t feel like posting. I had a doctors appointment Friday. In my mom’s usual fashion, she read the paper wrong and thought we had an appointment at 11:30, when it was at 10:30. It was 11:15 and we’re rushing out of the house to get there. He said there was one stone still in my kidney, but it had been a few days since the x-ray, so it may be gone now. After that, I had to go get blood work and give them my kidney stones, so they can try and figure out why I got them. I have to do some 24 hour urine analysis thing, I’m sure that will be fun. We saw my brother’s ex-wife while leaving the hospital and talked to her for a few minutes. They stopped at Lowes. I told them I wanted to pre-order Infamous at Gamestop, but they ignored me. I really wasn’t feeling good in the car on the ride home, my stomach felt horrible and a few times, I really felt like I was going to throw up. They kept asking what I wanted to eat, but I wasn’t hungry at all. They stopped at Subway and I got a Philly cheese steak for later. When I came home, I took a nap for an hour or so. I felt better after that.

I’ve been trying to play my DS a bit more. It got pretty neglected for awhile. I’m finally up to my third badge on Pokemon and I also got Togepi and Eevee, so I’m trying to level those two up. They made hamburgers and noodles tonight. I was really hungry when we ate, but didn’t feel all too good afterwards. I think I eat too quick, but when Mackenzie is at the table talking nonstop, my goal is to get away from the situation as quick as possible. She insists on sticking Abby in her cage for no reason constantly. It really annoys me. I let Abby out of the cage and 2 minutes later, Mackenzie is back over here, putting her back in the cage. She doesn’t need to be in there, she isn’t bothering anyone.

I pre-ordered Infamous last night, EB Games has one of the slowest sites ever. While trying to confirm the order, the page sat there for at least ten minutes. I was scared to click it again, but it wasn’t going through. I didn’t want to order it twice. After thinking about it, I finally did click it again, this time, the page timed out, now I had to click refresh and worry about ordering the game three times. Ugh. It seems like it only went through once, but still, that’s horrible. You get a special power if you pre-order the game, which is why I wanted to. I never really pre-order anything. The last time I did was when WWF Attitude was coming out on PS1, which was in.. 2001, maybe? I can’t quite remember. The store still didn’t get it in time and I ended up buying the game elsewhere. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but the new Batman game coming out looks good, too. I’m not sure if you have to pre-order it or if there’s a collector’s edition, but it comes with a Batarang and a bunch of other goodies. It’s like $40 more, but for a fucking batarang, I am sold. What am I going to do with a batarang? Proudly display it on my desk is what I will do.

It really sucks lately, it feels like I’m losing touch with a lot of people. I have more time than any person should have, so I constantly try to remind myself that people have lives and jobs, but most of the time, that’s not comforting. I always feel like I’m the one trying to initiate and hold a conversation, but then I realize that I don’t have anything to talk about anyway and it goes downhill from there. There are so many people I used to talk to that I rarely talk to now. I should know nothing ever stays the same, but I was never a big fan of change. I wish things could stay the same, but they never do, at least not when I want them to. When was the last time one of my friends asked me to do something? No one makes an effort to do anything. I seriously think the last time anyone asked me to do something was when Amy still lived around here, which was back in 2004 or 2005. It’s no wonder I was so attached to her, now we don’t even talk. I need to meet new people, but it’s hard meeting new people on the internet, when most randomly stop talking to you whenever they feel like it. The few times I do meet a new person, they’re so hell bent on calling me that it makes me want to stop talking to them completely. I hate talking on the phone, yet they still keep bringing it up. I know it’s my own fault, I constantly sit and wait for things to come to me, things doesn’t work like that.

I’m extremely bored right now, I could be watching a movie, but my brother decided it wasn’t worth taking a minute of his time to walk across the yard to give it to me.

Now I see that you’re just empty

I haven’t updated in awhile, but I really haven’t done much. Eagerly awaiting the release of Infamous for the PS3. It comes out on the 26th. Its Maple Story’s 4th anniversary, so they have events going on all month that I’ve been taking part in and wasting my life on. I was trying to pre-order Infamous from EB Games, but the site is so slow that I couldn’t get it to load. I have a doctors appointment Friday, so I’m hoping I can just go to the store and pre-order it then.

I watched Taken a few minutes ago. It was really good. I played some DS earlier. We had tuna fish and Ramen for dinner. The fan on my desktop keeps making a loud humming noise, I expect something to happen to it soon and knowing my luck, if one thing goes wrong with it, all things follow.

I should have more to say, but I don’t.

I’m a chip on your shoulder

Wednesday, I had that doctor’s appointment. We left at 10:30 and got there at 11. We waited forever. She had to stick an IV in my arm. That was extremely unpleasant. I hated looking at it, so I put my hat over it. They finally got a bed for me around 12 and I didn’t go in until almost 1. They put me out and stuck this vibrating machine on my side to break up the kidney stones. I still have a bruise on my side from it. When I woke up, I snapped out of it pretty quickly, they gave me graham crackers, which seriously was the most delicious thing ever and some ginger ale. They wanted me to go to the bathroom before I left, so I did that and they discharged me. We went to Subway and I got a Philly cheese steak, so good after not eating all day. There was a girl I went to school with working at the Subway. She was waving to me from inside, though I couldn’t really see her from the car. I have a follow up appointment with the doctor in a week or two.

I haven’t been in much pain the last few days, which is nice. I’ve been trying to go to sleep kind of early, like 3 am, which may not seem all that early, but compared to my usual 7 am bed time, it’s nice. I woke up today at 9. I sent back GTA so I can get the new Wolverine Origins game. I watched TMNT and Transformers yesterday and sent those back.

I mentioned installing Windows the other day, it turned out I didn’t make the partition big enough, so after setting up everything, I had to delete the partion and remake the partition with a bigger size and reinstall Windows. Everything is working properly now, though. I bought the new Killzone addon, I was playing that earlier, the new maps are fun. I added a Last.FM thing on the right side, so you can stalk the songs I’m currently listening to. It seems like a pretty cool feature.

Let the noise drown all your thoughts

I had to go to the Urologist today. I went to sleep at 1:30 last night and felt so peaceful. I always seem to sleep more when I have to wake up. Example: Normally, if I go to sleep at 1:30, I would have been up by 5, but since I had to go somewhere, I was still sleeping by 7.  I woke up at 7 and slowly made my way to get ready. We left at 8. We got there and waited forever. I forgot my DS. I don’t know why, but it sucked. We finally got called in the office at 9 and waited even longer. It was like a bathroom/office. Very odd. The lady tells me to pee in a cup, but it’s not even like a plastic container, it’s a fucking drinking cup. There’s something very unsettling about looking over at the table less than 2 feet away and seeing your piss in a cup.

When the doctor finally came in, (another 45 minutes later) I was so bored. My sanity had already checked out and I had difficulty listening to what he was saying. I didn’t want to be there and figured it’d be a quick in and out, drink more water and you’ll be fine, but he was telling me all this shit about how I have two kidney stones. They have to go in with this vibration machine and break it up, I have to take a antibiotics and some other stuff. I had a choice of doing the vibration or getting a stent/stunt, (I don’t remember what it’s called) but I really don’t want them doing anything with Mr. Winky. They would have to go in that way, if I chose that method.

After we left, I had to get blood work and pee in yet another cup. We went to Walmart to get the presciption filled. Some nice exercise there. After that, they always ask me where I want to eat and then my mom complains where I pick. Anyway, I picked Sonic, since the last time I went there in South Carolina was bad memories. I got the chicken strip dinner, which was surprisingly filling and good. I also got a strawberry milkshake. My dad had trouble hearing the girl while he was placing the order, so they didn’t bring him his order, which sucked.

On the way home, we saw a hitchiker and all I could think of was the scene from Dumb and Dumber. LET’S PICK HIM UP!

My mom made me stay up until 3 to take some pills, then I took a nap until 5:30. I installed Windows on here, everything seemed to go fine, but I can’t get the internet to detect for some reason. I always have problems setting it up on Windows.